Sahabat

kadang2 sy lupa.
sy punya sahabat.
kadang2 sy beckp tnpa memikirkan perasaannya.
sy pikir balek.ye sy salah.
sy terlalu ego utk mengatakan maaf.
sy tak tahu rupanya sahabat sy sedih sbb sy.
jahatnye sy.
sy harap sahabat sy memahami sy.
tp sy lupa sy pon tak cuba memahami die.
sy harap die gembirakan ati sy.
tp sy tak penah pon menggembirakan hati die.
sy harap die jadi terbaik sy.
sy tnya balek, terbaikkah sy?
suatu hari, perpisahan terjadi.
sy dan sahabat berpisah.
baru la sy mengerti erti persahabatan.
tnpa sahabat, sy sunyi.
sy rasa keseorangn.
br sy tahu betapa sahabat sy yg terbaik.
betapa sahabat sy memahami sy dr org laen.
jahatnye sy sbb slalu melukai hatinya dl.
sy menyesal.


"Selemah lemah manusia ialah orang yg tidak boleh mencari sahabat dan org yg lebih lemah dari itu ialah org yg mensia2kan sahabat yang tlh dicari". (Saidina Ali)




sahabat2 semua,
sy sgt bertuah punya kalian sbg sahabat.
maafkan sgl kekhilafan.
sesungguhnya sy mencuba menjadi yg terbaek.
tp kdg2 xmampu.
terima kasih atas semuanya.
=)

Kami ke Bristol.

cuti weekend ni kitorg menyempatkan diri pegi bristol. ape ade d bristol? jom kite tgk.

090508 Friday
Pagi
betolak dr plymouth train station kul 9.25am camtu. n mcm besa ktrg 5 minutes b4 departure br smpai. ape laie bekejar2 la naek train. then smpai bristol around 11.15am. trus check in kat white house. pas mkn2 trus kuar. tnye kat pompuan yg jg umah tumpangn ni, die ckp nnti nak pegi centre jln2 pastu corner kiri smpai jmpa bridge. ktrg pon bejalan la jauhnye. then tnye pakcek yg bediri dpn pub tu. die ckp ktrg da slh jln. patut nye ke kiri. tp bole je lintas bridge tu n patah balek. aiya penat gler seh. ape laie jln je ngn gembiranye. da smpai city centre (ktrg agak2 la itu city centre), jmpa habour. kapal2 byk. org berbaju office pon ramai tgh mkn. jln je. dengn tidk sengajanye ktrg jumpa tourist info nye bgnn. msk la. br la carik map. tu d namakan explore smpai saket kaki.wakakaka



Tgh ari
Brunel's Great Britain. tat's our 1st destination 4 today. pegi tgk kapal tua. besh. tgk dlm kapal tu ape ade. Snap2 pics. Pakcek2 omputih ni baek. Siap tnye ktrg nak die amekkan gamba. Ape lagi, yes! Tgk camne org dl2 belayar. ade bilik2 utk org kaya, org2 miskin, kuli2. dapur dlm kapal. tp tmpat diorg tdo alahai kecik. rimas2. camne la org blayar lama2 neh. Ktrg merasa la duk atas kapal. then abes pusing2 ktrg naek bot pegi sbelah sana city. 1.50pounds.

Ptg
yes shopping till u down! haha. jenjalan kat bristol shopping mall. tp cam besa. 5-6pm da ttp kedai diorg. bosan tul. bli mknn b4 balek umah tumpangan. naek teksi sbb telampau penat. mlm ni ktrg plan nk pegi suspension bridge. teksi tu mamat bangla yg bwk. ktrg mintak la num phone company die nnti mlm sng la kol je. tp die ckp, "i give u my number, u call me. dont worry, i'm muslim n u muslim. no lying." hehe. ktrg pgl die borat. jahat gler. ktrg ckp la ktrg nk p suspension bridge around 9pm. die ckp,"no its too late for u to go late. i come n pick u all at 8am. i wait here n if u late its ok. i wont charge u." haha baek la plak mamat bangla neh.

Mlm
solat2 n siap2kan diri. pk bj yg d bli ptg td. kuar2 borat da tnggu. cpat gler. naek teksi trus die bawak g suspension bridge tu. ckp byk la plak mamat neh. Cantek view die. sejam kat situ then blah. Tdo xsdar diri smpai esok pgnye. Pnat2.



100508 Saturday
Naek bas sightseeing Bristol. 9 pounds each. Mahal jgk. Tp takpe la. Jnji leh tour Bristol. Pegi zoo. Lebey kurang zoo m’sia. Busuk ttp busuk. Hehe. Naseb baek ktrg gerak awl. Kalo tak, ramai gler org. bwk anak2 pegi zoo. Kawan2ku sume ade fobia tesndiri. So, ade kwsn2 dlm zoo ni tepaksa di forward dgn lajunye utk mengelakkan pengeluaran suara yg tinggi. Haha. Pas pegi zoo, naek bas tu balek pegi city centre. Nak bli flip flop. Shopping laie. Kali ni cr kasut jer. Then pegi Georgian house. Rumah org kaya zamn dl2. cantek! Suke gler umah lama2 camni. p/s- Nnti kite wat umah camni e? hee. Pastu teruskan pejalanan tgk bristolnye Universiti. Nad nak imbau kenangan ayah nad. Begmbar2 then balek ke bilek smbil bejln kaki. Actually ktrg kena check out kul 12pm tp org tu sgt baek. Diorg ckp takpe2, tgl je brg2 kat sini then bl nak balek br amek. Diorg siap tlg pnggilkan teksi. Ni antara benda baek yg ada pd omputih yg aku suke. Eh lupa bgtau, skrg spring, so d Bristol agak panas. So bl jln2 tu tak heran la kalo tgk mamat omputih ni tak pk bj. Naek kete xpk bj, kat park penuh je bebaring2. smpai Plymouth je sjuk balek. Huhu. Anyway, perjalanan yg memenatkan tp lots of new things. Harap2 Borat tak call nad nnti.haha.

saya punya masalh dlm mengedit post ni.tba2 sume function yg kat ats tu ilang.simbol2 tu da xda.nape yer?nk letak kaler2 font pon takleh.nk bold, italic pon pening.ilang smgt nak post blog.isk=(

Tanya sama hati

Tiba2 tingat lagu lama.
favourite song mak, bapak n yubi =)
indahnye bhs, penuh maksud.

Tanya pada pokok apa sbb goyang
nanti jawab pokok angin yang goncang
tanya sama langit apa sbb hujan
nanti jawab langit tanya la awan

Awan nanti kata aku kandung air
Sampai tempat sejuk aku pun cair
Tengok dlm air nampak bayang2
Campak satu batu bayang pun hilang

Tanya sama hati apa asal sayang
Adakah tandanya nampak di pandang
Kumbang rayu bunga, bulan dan bintangnya
Punya tanda² hubungan mesra

Tanya sama hati pernahkah merindu
Ingat masa lena apa mimpimu
Masa berjauhan apa nan di kenang
Bila difahamkan itulah sayang

Jikalau tidak kerana sayang
Kuntuman kasih tak mungkin kembang

Andainya jemu mengganti rindu
Jambangan mesra tentulah layu

Laugh for today.

dah berapa ari housemate2 ku asyik mengadu pasal tahap kepanasan air shower dlm bathroom ktrg.
aku sgt pelik.
sbbnye diorg ckp air tu tak panas.
shower yg lama tu lagi panas dr shower neh la bla bla bla.
aku punye la nak temelecur badan dek kerana shower tu.
aku ckp pusing la smpai yg plg hot.
diorg ckp mmg da pusing plg hot dah.
ari neh akhirnye sumenye tebongkar.
plg hot diorg tu bersamaan min sejuk.
diorg tak pusing abes sbb arahan kat situ tak jelas(ada tanda arrow n dot2 je).
ptt la.
i'm visual learner.
hana n tiku audio learner.
nad?pandai bc buku.hee.
ade la jgk benda aku nk ketawa ari neh.
gelagat teman2 ku yg sgt lucu.
=D

Minority

when we are minority, we tend to protect each other. we are becoming closer and closer. the bond between us is very strong. i luv being in this society. we appreciate everyone. no selfish, no racism. Love!

Zub's birthday. everyone gathered and celebrated her birthday. i learn-appreciation,family,love.if we are still in Malaysia, i dont think that we can gather everyone like this.

Trip to Buckland Abbey, Plymouth. Masa tgh2 nak amek gambar. i saw a woman with her family, black hair(well rarely Plymouthian black hair). looked like Asian. she looked at me, and i looked at her. then she walked pass me. "Where r u come from?". "Malaysia, n u?". "Oh, I'm from Philiphines.What r u doing here?". "I'm studying here". "Oh, u r studying here". and i know she wanted to ask more questions(i can see question marks on her face ;P) but then i busy snapping2 photos. so the questions left unanswered. if in Malaysia, ah i dont care about others. mind own bussiness. belanggar bahu pon tak betegur sapa.

at Seffton Park, Manchester. on the way back, saw a young lady, long black hair. looked like Malay. she with her Mat Saleh's husband. "Korang2, tu melayu ker?". "A'h muka cam melayu". "Ha tgk die snyum kat kite."

on the way to Old Trafford stadium. saw an indian family. we were walking behind them. we were talking in Malay lang. then the wife asked us wether we r from M'sia. then she said she's from KL. on vacation. we walked together to the stadium.

old trafford stadium

went to city centre. waited hana outside the shop. a man walked in front of me (well lots of people walked in front of me, but this man is different). he looked at me, and i looked at him. then he entered a shop. i saw him talking to his friend(another male). then his friend looked at me. and i knew what they were thinking at that time because i have the same thought as they were. hana came. i told hana n she looked at the man too. we giggle. "Tourist agaknye". "Agaknye la. Mane ade Melayu laen lagi kat Plymouth ni laen dr budak Marjon n abg2 uni Plymouth". =)

city centre

bla da berada d perantauan, barulah ku tahu betapa kite sebenarnye saling memerlukan satu sama laen utk mnjadi lebih kuat. nmpak org yg sama kaler ngn kite pon da ckp wat kite excited.

Tribute to Tok

me and Tok in 1988.
   

slept 6am this morning. then suddenly heard my phone rang at 8.35am.
"dpt tak msg aku td?"
"haa?(dgn nada mamai2)"
"tok da takdak kul 3.30pm td(M'sia time)."
"o ok"
i dont know.confused.then,
"ya Allah tok da takde ke."
started to cry. cant stop. 
"hello, br sebut2 nm da call"
"tok da takde"
"yeke?dah2 stop nanges.pegi amek Yassin baca e."
i dont feel like sleeping anymore. cant stop cry. grabbed yassin and pray for her.

My tok, Manis Shariff. She is staying with us till yesterday. lots n lots of memories.

January 2008
she said her eyes was blurred. cataract. admitted to hospital. operation n i had opportunity to take care of her when she's in hospital.

February 2008
she kept telling about the pain in her stomach. i bring her to clinic. the doctor suspected cancer and wrote a letter to hospital. she didnt want to go to hospital. she ate traditional medicine. saw her on webcame after few days been in UK. this was the last time i saw her.

March 2008
phoned mom n she told me tat grandma was very sick. she was diagnosed as having liver cancer.cant even walked. her stomach became bigger n bigger.

April 2008
called mom n she asked wether i pray for tok. then i said yes. mom asked how i recite the prayers? i said, mintak moga tok d sembuhkan. then mak told me, "kalo sembuh itu yg tebaek utk tok, sembuhkanlah die. Kalo tak, Kau jemputlah die."
mak said that she cant stand looked how suffer tok was when the pain attacked. berat mata yg memandang, berat lagi org yg menanggungnye.

01 May 2008, Thursday (330pm M'sia time=830am UK)
she's gone. i cant even buy her a bracelet. she said she didnt want anything, "blikan tok gelang tgn berubat je nnti. wa nah(our neighbour) ckp ari tu ms die p england byk org jual gelang tu. mana tau kot2 bole lega saket tok neh." May she rest in peace. Moga2 tok d tempatkan d kalngn org soleh. It will be weird when i'm going home nnti. only mak n bapak left at home now. tok's room will be empty. no one to eat ikan kembung anymore. no one will sit at the corner of the kitchen eating pinang. will miss u tok. al-fatihah.