me and Tok in 1988.
slept 6am this morning. then suddenly heard my phone rang at 8.35am.
"dpt tak msg aku td?"
"haa?(dgn nada mamai2)"
"tok da takdak kul 3.30pm td(M'sia time)."
"o ok"
i dont know.confused.then,
"ya Allah tok da takde ke."
started to cry. cant stop.
"hello, br sebut2 nm da call"
"tok da takde"
"yeke?dah2 stop nanges.pegi amek Yassin baca e."
i dont feel like sleeping anymore. cant stop cry. grabbed yassin and pray for her.
My tok, Manis Shariff. She is staying with us till yesterday. lots n lots of memories.
January 2008
she said her eyes was blurred. cataract. admitted to hospital. operation n i had opportunity to take care of her when she's in hospital.
February 2008
she kept telling about the pain in her stomach. i bring her to clinic. the doctor suspected cancer and wrote a letter to hospital. she didnt want to go to hospital. she ate traditional medicine. saw her on webcame after few days been in UK. this was the last time i saw her.
March 2008
phoned mom n she told me tat grandma was very sick. she was diagnosed as having liver cancer.cant even walked. her stomach became bigger n bigger.
April 2008
called mom n she asked wether i pray for tok. then i said yes. mom asked how i recite the prayers? i said, mintak moga tok d sembuhkan. then mak told me, "kalo sembuh itu yg tebaek utk tok, sembuhkanlah die. Kalo tak, Kau jemputlah die."
mak said that she cant stand looked how suffer tok was when the pain attacked. berat mata yg memandang, berat lagi org yg menanggungnye.
01 May 2008, Thursday (330pm M'sia time=830am UK)
she's gone. i cant even buy her a bracelet. she said she didnt want anything, "blikan tok gelang tgn berubat je nnti. wa nah(our neighbour) ckp ari tu ms die p england byk org jual gelang tu. mana tau kot2 bole lega saket tok neh." May she rest in peace. Moga2 tok d tempatkan d kalngn org soleh. It will be weird when i'm going home nnti. only mak n bapak left at home now. tok's room will be empty. no one to eat ikan kembung anymore. no one will sit at the corner of the kitchen eating pinang. will miss u tok. al-fatihah.
"dpt tak msg aku td?"
"haa?(dgn nada mamai2)"
"tok da takdak kul 3.30pm td(M'sia time)."
"o ok"
i dont know.confused.then,
"ya Allah tok da takde ke."
started to cry. cant stop.
"hello, br sebut2 nm da call"
"tok da takde"
"yeke?dah2 stop nanges.pegi amek Yassin baca e."
i dont feel like sleeping anymore. cant stop cry. grabbed yassin and pray for her.
My tok, Manis Shariff. She is staying with us till yesterday. lots n lots of memories.
January 2008
she said her eyes was blurred. cataract. admitted to hospital. operation n i had opportunity to take care of her when she's in hospital.
February 2008
she kept telling about the pain in her stomach. i bring her to clinic. the doctor suspected cancer and wrote a letter to hospital. she didnt want to go to hospital. she ate traditional medicine. saw her on webcame after few days been in UK. this was the last time i saw her.
March 2008
phoned mom n she told me tat grandma was very sick. she was diagnosed as having liver cancer.cant even walked. her stomach became bigger n bigger.
April 2008
called mom n she asked wether i pray for tok. then i said yes. mom asked how i recite the prayers? i said, mintak moga tok d sembuhkan. then mak told me, "kalo sembuh itu yg tebaek utk tok, sembuhkanlah die. Kalo tak, Kau jemputlah die."
mak said that she cant stand looked how suffer tok was when the pain attacked. berat mata yg memandang, berat lagi org yg menanggungnye.
01 May 2008, Thursday (330pm M'sia time=830am UK)
she's gone. i cant even buy her a bracelet. she said she didnt want anything, "blikan tok gelang tgn berubat je nnti. wa nah(our neighbour) ckp ari tu ms die p england byk org jual gelang tu. mana tau kot2 bole lega saket tok neh." May she rest in peace. Moga2 tok d tempatkan d kalngn org soleh. It will be weird when i'm going home nnti. only mak n bapak left at home now. tok's room will be empty. no one to eat ikan kembung anymore. no one will sit at the corner of the kitchen eating pinang. will miss u tok. al-fatihah.
6 thoughts:
smile for you had been with her mase die saket, and to take care of her. and smile for now die dah tak suffer, and may segala kesakitan yg dia tanggung slama neh menjadi penghapus dosa. smoga tenang di sana. amin.
yup thanks tiku. jgn nanges2 ye tiku.=)
zati...takziah..
sedeynyer..selame ni dengar zati bercrite bout arwah tok zati..skarang ni die dh xde..kite pon rase sedey :(..moga arwah ditempatkan di kalangan org2 beriman dan senantiasa dicucuri rahmat ALLAH SWT..amin...
(zati, takziah 2u n ur fam..)
~sarah haiina~
thanks sarah.pasni da takleh cite2 laie.da takde nk cite=(.tp yg idup perlu truskan idup.cheers!=)
al-fatihah.
takziah.
thanks nad.=)
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